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Porn

Porn is something that comes up quite often in my line of work. Everyone wants to know what videos I watch and some even send me links to watch with them.

The trouble is, I hate porn. I am sure if I wanted to spend HOURS searching through videos I would find something I did like, but from what I have seen the majority is not too my liking. In fact, many videos make me gag. It’s not just the dark taboo fetish stuff that is making me gag, it’s the front page general everyman porn videos that make me sick.

My theory on this is I am of the mind sex should feel good, I want to feel good but in these videos, I automatically put myself in the place of these women, and what they are doing does not feel good. I don’t want my face to slapped with a dick- I mean does that even feel good to the male? I don’t want to choke on a cock until tears run down my face and I vomit. No thank you. Most porn I find very difficult to watch.

Which causes some problems. I have guys ask me to go find a video I like and send them the link. At first, I thought easy-peasy, this guy likes BDSM heavy on the sadistic, I will just pick a random one. Not so fast, I actually have to watch the video and be able to comment on it. I also try and be as honest and real as possible in my interactions. I may not share your fetish, but I get turned on by the fact you are turned on and I want to at least understand your perspective. So I have to try and find a video in your fetish, that I can stomach and pretend to like. Not so easy.

It’s very different on the phone when we are playing I get caught up in the moment and it is very erotic for me in general. If I am watching porn, it’s just me, alone, being disgusted.

If I am going to watch porn, I prefer the caller send me a link of what he likes and we watch it together. I find it much more palatable as I am sharing in your enjoyment. Using your pleasure like a safety blanket.

Part of me wishes I could watch more of it as it can be such a great tool. I found one series I did like by Divine Bitches- its Female Dominatrixes. I could watch it because the women weren’t being abused it was the men. So when I put myself in their places I was in the power position. These videos helped me a lot with developing my Domina Phone Sex Queen aspect. Alas, when I attempted other types of fetishes where women were in the bottom position I was back to gagging.

Now that is just my personal feelings towards porn. Big picture I don’t have a problem with the idea of porn, hell I would consider making my own videos. I doubt that will happen because I wouldn’t do something because it looked good on camera, I would only do what feels good and that would appeal only to a niche group.

I think this is a topic we will revisit again as I am fascinated by porn and its effects on society and our culture as a whole.

 

 

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